If you want me to improve on smtg, tell me.
But if you want me to stop voicing out my opinions, im sorry,i can't.
i was not arguing kaisheng.i dunno why you chose to see it that way.
i was merely telling you not to expect so much
hence,to prevent such great disappointment upon seeing our figures.
i know my ambs. and i know that fml isnt their first priority.
different people, different perception.
you may have fml as first, and when you think up your plans,
they may sound good on paper and everything, but human-wise,
not many are as committed as you, or as hardworking as you
many just dont look at fml the way you want them to.
basically, i think we need to revamp the system.
can i be listened to and not judged as ARGUING but more of SUGGESTING?
im so stressed about fml and i dont think you see it.
everywhere i go i try and ask ppl to come.
yes, maybe its my "freaking pitch".
come.one day.
you.me.pen.and paper.
teach me kaisheng.
i cant just be thrown into the deep sea and expected to float.
i know thats what you kinda want,
experimentations, experiences and learning from our mistakes.
but i need to know the basics.
How i got so affected by your blog post was just because of one
main word that triggered it.
"disappointed".
do you know how discouraging it is to be said to disappoint someone?
especially after you try your best and work so hard.
i live my life in hopes of not disappointing anyone, though i know thats kinda impossible.
but im just saying, you made me look at myself and think otherwise.
you made me feel like im not good enough and that im such a disappointment.
as if my self-esteem wasnt already somewhere hovering close above the ground,
its now sunk to an all time low. where i feel what i do will just sometimes never be seen as good in your eyes. im not saying that youre that your expectations are so damnass high, but im just saying, i guess whatever i do will never stand out to you. since i really work so hard at doing so. just hoping to be successful and have people realise that it was me who did it, or me who worked hard. and dont get me wrong, im not looking for praises or anything, but just to be looked as, as smtg far better than a "bimbo".
but i thank you for laying out what i did well and all a few weeks back.but so many things have changed now and from your blog post, it just really seems like youre not happy.and when youre not happy, im not happy.you dont know how interlinked all our feelings are with yours.you dont know how much we get affected when we see you stressed, sitting four-eyed in front of your computer with a smile barely able to show itself on your face.and thats kinda really very saddening..
i love Freemansland too much man. I WILL work hard for it.
but in this trying time of school projects and the numerous amnt of deadlines,
i know you understand but i hope you keep understanding why i have to prioritize that as first.
afterall,i do wanna stay in Fml.but we all know what mummy said bout me failing.
i can pretty much kiss fml goodbye. thats why im trying so hard for it.
but yes, im still on for the fight for fml.
cos we're family. and i want us to go far.
okae i dont think i wanna continue all this tonight la.
i guess it should be sleep now.or csa.
ugh.csa.
i just knew i wld push it to sunday.
damnit.
But if you want me to stop voicing out my opinions, im sorry,i can't.
i was not arguing kaisheng.i dunno why you chose to see it that way.
i was merely telling you not to expect so much
hence,to prevent such great disappointment upon seeing our figures.
i know my ambs. and i know that fml isnt their first priority.
different people, different perception.
you may have fml as first, and when you think up your plans,
they may sound good on paper and everything, but human-wise,
not many are as committed as you, or as hardworking as you
many just dont look at fml the way you want them to.
basically, i think we need to revamp the system.
can i be listened to and not judged as ARGUING but more of SUGGESTING?
im so stressed about fml and i dont think you see it.
everywhere i go i try and ask ppl to come.
yes, maybe its my "freaking pitch".
come.one day.
you.me.pen.and paper.
teach me kaisheng.
i cant just be thrown into the deep sea and expected to float.
i know thats what you kinda want,
experimentations, experiences and learning from our mistakes.
but i need to know the basics.
How i got so affected by your blog post was just because of one
main word that triggered it.
"disappointed".
do you know how discouraging it is to be said to disappoint someone?
especially after you try your best and work so hard.
i live my life in hopes of not disappointing anyone, though i know thats kinda impossible.
but im just saying, you made me look at myself and think otherwise.
you made me feel like im not good enough and that im such a disappointment.
as if my self-esteem wasnt already somewhere hovering close above the ground,
its now sunk to an all time low. where i feel what i do will just sometimes never be seen as good in your eyes. im not saying that youre that your expectations are so damnass high, but im just saying, i guess whatever i do will never stand out to you. since i really work so hard at doing so. just hoping to be successful and have people realise that it was me who did it, or me who worked hard. and dont get me wrong, im not looking for praises or anything, but just to be looked as, as smtg far better than a "bimbo".
but i thank you for laying out what i did well and all a few weeks back.but so many things have changed now and from your blog post, it just really seems like youre not happy.and when youre not happy, im not happy.you dont know how interlinked all our feelings are with yours.you dont know how much we get affected when we see you stressed, sitting four-eyed in front of your computer with a smile barely able to show itself on your face.and thats kinda really very saddening..
i love Freemansland too much man. I WILL work hard for it.
but in this trying time of school projects and the numerous amnt of deadlines,
i know you understand but i hope you keep understanding why i have to prioritize that as first.
afterall,i do wanna stay in Fml.but we all know what mummy said bout me failing.
i can pretty much kiss fml goodbye. thats why im trying so hard for it.
but yes, im still on for the fight for fml.
cos we're family. and i want us to go far.
okae i dont think i wanna continue all this tonight la.
i guess it should be sleep now.or csa.
ugh.csa.
i just knew i wld push it to sunday.
damnit.
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