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Its so hard to just sit here and take it all in.
Just for the goodness of something else.
I'm so fucking depressed, scared and lost.
There's just so many what ifs shooting in from all directions.
Too many.

I'm trying.
I really am.
but nothing seems to be helping the current situation.
If only you knew.
If only you knew how hard this is for me.
If only.

Im trying to be strong here.
Im trying to keep trying.
But i dont know how much longer i can.

All i hope for,
is an end to this turmoil.
Soon.
Very soon.