i hate the feeling of hating something
but you just cant get rid of it cos the
damn thing is part of you. and even
if someone can tell me otherwise, i
don't think it can ever change my
perception towards it because its not
in you. its in me. whatever it is, i'll have
to deal with it.and i hate it so bad
to the point of rolling in a ball and
crying myself to sleep just so i can
shut it out of my mind for those
few hours where my mind isnt
functioning and reminding me of
how this kinda shit chose to
exist in my life. i know i should be
grateful for everything else im not
insecure about. but in this world
with crude people and their crude
remarks, i dont think its very easy.
fuck insecurities. the only thing
that's gonna get me through this is
removing the whole damn thing from my
life. and one day. i will. and i cant wait
for that damn day to come. where maybe
a certain level of confidence can begin to
bloom in my life. but till then, just fuck it.
but you just cant get rid of it cos the
damn thing is part of you. and even
if someone can tell me otherwise, i
don't think it can ever change my
perception towards it because its not
in you. its in me. whatever it is, i'll have
to deal with it.and i hate it so bad
to the point of rolling in a ball and
crying myself to sleep just so i can
shut it out of my mind for those
few hours where my mind isnt
functioning and reminding me of
how this kinda shit chose to
exist in my life. i know i should be
grateful for everything else im not
insecure about. but in this world
with crude people and their crude
remarks, i dont think its very easy.
fuck insecurities. the only thing
that's gonna get me through this is
removing the whole damn thing from my
life. and one day. i will. and i cant wait
for that damn day to come. where maybe
a certain level of confidence can begin to
bloom in my life. but till then, just fuck it.
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