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mini poppers, recorded singing sessions, many many yawns, homework being done for me and a good/lousy sleep to end of the whole night.
(good cos i slept through with no dreams.bad cos i woke up so damn tired still)
thanks vannny. yesterday was fun~
and THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ME NEW PEEEMPLE PLUCKER TOOOOLL..
im a very happy girl:) no more unnecessary bumpybumpies on my face~:D

well, i just felt like embarrassing myself today.
k maybe not all out to embarrass myself but more of to..
put a smile on your face! either a smile from laughing or a smile of disgust (?!)
but HERE WE GO. this is the monster i was back in the days.
BEWAREEE
(pity blogger wont allow me to hide the pic first or smtg, create some suspense.hahaha)

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA.there we go.i made it small small.
kudos to innovative suspense!
well say hello to the
winner of the the
look-like-a-horse
and
dress-like-a-fool
competition.
haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
k.very ugly.goodbye.

ssdf

was supposed to go to pulau ubin today, so i went for 6.45AM mass ALONE cos jill said to be ready by 9.30.but WOWWHEE. we didnt end up gg in the end -_-.
ahhhhhh wells, kinda expected it anyways.

so ive been thinking,to ------------,
its kinda sad to think that we've pretty much lost our friendship.
im thinking. cos the outlook on our recent interactions havent been exactly good.
and its pretty disappointing to see what youre doing with your life now.
youve become someone i dont think i know anymore, not that i really knew you,
but now, i really dont. i guess birds of a feather, really do flock together.
and though its been quite a while that ive been in-the-know of things,
i still chose to eliminate the negative points of you, and just base
how i see you as what i saw and i always tried to stand up for you.
well, i guess im still gonna try and do that, cos nobody's perfect but im just glad
i got to see the good side of you, so i can believe what i say when i defend you, though
now, it'd be based on how i saw you as last time.
All i can say is, girls, arnt toys.
there's a price that some unlucky ones have to pay.
and i really just hope you dont end up being one of them.
take care of yourself k mr. protection's always the key.

and however this msg comes across, i really mean well
and just hope the best for you.
Whatever it is, Im here, and have always been. and i really wont mind taking up
the chance to get to know the real you again. but until you screw the idea of giving me the cold shoulder, take good care of yourself.

asfds

i just found this cool.
and i think im falling in love with fergie's album.
ooooooooo.

and im like going on a youtubingspreee now.
dont you think fergie kinda dances like ellen degeneres here?
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHA.

dont you dont you?!

i actually wanted to find a vid of ellen dancing, so i cld compare it, but then i found this!!!!!hahahaha.damncuteommmggg.


okae but now here's the comparison to fergie's dance.hahaha

DAS

sometimes i wonder if this is the right scene for me.
paranoia and irritations.
im glad i have my girls:)
and i know ive said this so many times before,
but im so happy what we have is a real friendship built on love, care and concern.
and that only being less than a quarter of what our relationship really is.

Tasha,Nini,Tiffy,Nicole Oli,Sonn Pasu,Paula Sim,and last but not least, Rachy.
Im so thankful to have met you'll and i never want to lose any one of you.
infact, i hope i die first.
HAHA. as in cos cos cos, then i wont suffer when losing youll.
not that i hope to die now la. YAA GETTT?

k whatev.
ANYWAYS.
eh eh eh.
ANTONNNN.
your party was so hott and smashing in the relak-one-corner way.
:D

and as of today, a confirmation letter can be sent in to NewWater
saying i can be like a new branch for recycled water. The amount of perspiration.
ooooomyyygooshhhh.
I absolutely am hating this weather.
and global warming.
and everything.
ughhhhhhh.

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oh yeahh! Ryan tannnn ah. though we may be like leagues apart now,
im still here and i hope youre A-ok alright?
ryantan was missing from the scene today.
i hope he comes back soon.
take care mr.lighten up alright? :)

OH YEAH. and MS LANGE.
congrats on getting your driving license on the first try!
time to bug daddy for the car and
WOOOOOO.
time of our lives man.
HURRY HURRY HURRY GO EARN AND BUY A CAR.
then you can chauffeur me to school.
harrrharrr.jokes.
k love you la sisTAAAA.
hurr.
here's one of the few from our past.
:)

afasd

hi. rugby today was soso.
not the cca but more of how i was.
blahblahh. i really wanna play in the competition though.
but standing out among 63 plusplusplus ppl is so hard.
when the places to fill are only so small an amount.
ROARR. whatev.

on to events,
5th JULY.
FREEMANSLAND's ANNIVERSARY@ HOMECLUB.
Come celebrate it with us! Admission's only $6 and everybody's just gonna come
down and mingle! There'll be a list of cool bands playing as well! Such as
1)Deafening Silence

2)Axecalibur

3)Face-off

4)An overseas band

5)Cigarette Sex
(havent heard of them?all the more you should come down!
REALLY well chosen bands and come support Local talent!
Really not a fan of local talent? NO WORRIES> come down and
enjoy a good crowd and good drink prices!cheap beers!
so do help me promote and get tickets from me asap!
:}

On to 6th July. Festival for a future @ The Glass Pavilion-fareast square(near raffles i think?)
Tickets at $20 IF YOU BUY FROM ME. but $25 at the door.
Expensive? HEYYY, think of it like this.
FIRSTLY, there'll be a list of TOP singapore bands!
ELECTRICO.
CARACAL.
A VACANT AFFAIR.
THE FIRE FIGHT.
and more bands like
Redeeming the Riot,
How to kill a muffin man,
finding michelle,
adieu,
humonguous C,
12:01,
XD ,
10 minutes late,
grace's,
armchair critic,
deafening silence,
for this cycle.
AND PLUS.A FASHION SHOWWWWWW.

now secondly, ALL PROFITS GO TO CHARITY YOYOYO.
to help build a school in rural China!
so enjoy good music and! help other out! contribute and feel gooood doing it yoyoyo.

so im closing accounts by about wednesday,
GET IT FROM ME SOON ALRIGHT.
thanks:)

dvazdf

Hair plastered down,
looking like an egg
and training in the RAINNNN was pretty cool today.
But no doubt, damn bloody tiring.

Laying out the drills..
1)Fitness : 5 shuttle runs, 15 push-ups, 15 crunches, 15 jumping-jacks,--->(1 set)
so we did like THREE sets.

THEN.
2)running around from sports complex to near mensa, to library and through business school.

3)drills again,
--10 push-ups,10 sit-ups,10 push-ups,10 sit-ups,20 jumping jacks and 20 step-ups-->1 set.
and again, we did..THREE sets.

well at the start of training, totally felt like i was losing all the skills taught and blah,
but by the end of training, i scored a tryyy!or a made a try?did a try?touched-down?
whatevvvvvvvv. i sscored a point! (but translate to rugby terms)haha.

well, i realise one thing why i like the game.
when youre playing, you can really feel the adrenaline pumping and
when you call for the ball, and (for me-quite a lousy catcher) to catch the ball,
runnnnnnnn and dart and SCOREEE makes you feel totally good.
and the people in the cca are pretty nice too:)
but the people i go with for cca are JUST THE BOMBBB mannnnn.
Sherrie Han,Kim Sim,Felicia,Ashley Ngggg,and all.
woooooooo. we are kanyeee wessSAC yo.
hahahaahhahahaahhaha.

k.
im going to sleep now.
tmr's a short-long day.
i start at 12 but end at 6.which is totally draggy.
but movie afterwards?yes no yes no?
noooooooo. lets save money vannny.
dinner and event planning?
yes no yes no?you see you cant say i didnt wanna go out with you ahhh.ha

k a little proud aunty's moment. :)

OKAE.GOODNIGHT.NOW.BYE.

dzsfsxd

omgggggg. i cannot believe i didnt sleep at all last night just so i could finish up my csa project.
so with the 4 cups of tea that kept me awake through the night, i left early for school so i cld hand in my proj and it totally felt like an elephant was lifted from my shoulders. CSA. OVER.DONE.WOOOOOOOO.

so but anyways, got back macro econs marks and i like just passed.
what.the.fuck. totally spoilt like 1/4 of my day. at least the meeting at night with kaisheng, van and louis brightened me up!Adam and jemie came too! and omg totally felt damn good seeing jemie after so long. pretty updated we are. :) okae so we spent like a whole hour watching Bboys break it down at the underground part near the esplanade there and omgggggg, they are so coooool and gooood. then we wrapped up our day with playing charades(the song version) in the mrt as van being the perpetual mute singer. hahah.

so now its really sleep for me. after like 48 hours with probably two 1hr naps in between.

and to -----------.
thanks so much for always being there!
you show so much care and concern i hope you show yourself the same alright!
gogo~ mr wheelies cum malay singer.hahaha.


k night yoyoyoyo.
OH AND OMG.
COME GET TICKETS FROM ME.
COOLEST EVENT of the upcoming week!


oh yeah and hi jeffrey.
this is for youuuuu.
or more like. THIS IS YOU.hahah

to people, if youre wondering whats the two things sticking out from his ears,
its his extra skin.i just drew what i saw.
HAHAHAHHHAHAHAHa.
okae i joke.
his friend just kept poking the two things into his ears.
haa.


K BYE FO SHO FO SHO.

adasd

Csa is killing me.
Slept at 4 last night and woke up at 10:35 this morning.
Rushed to 11am mass, came back and ate lunch.
Then.....FELL ASLEEP.
till what time? FIVE FREAKING CLOCK.plusplus.

so its 10:02 now. and im still rushing CSA (computer applications system).
im thinking.
and i dont understand what the hell im supposed to dooooooo.

*points above*
THIS.IS.WHAT IM SUPPOSED TO GET.
but no.im not getting it.
(Lijuan why you so good!!!)
omgggggggg. my peeeeemplesssss are resurrecting.
and i think their planning a riot soon.
X_X.


WELL.
whatevs to that.
ill settle it in time to come.

on to..
HI KAISHENG.
thanks for your sweet fml-devoted blog post.
and you are NOT fighting this alone:)
NEVERRRRRRRRRRR.

okae.ive gotta stop getting distracted.
FML MEETING SOON KAYY~
FREEMANSLANDilloveloveoveeeee:):):)

sds

If you want me to improve on smtg, tell me.
But if you want me to stop voicing out my opinions, im sorry,i can't.
i was not arguing kaisheng.i dunno why you chose to see it that way.
i was merely telling you not to expect so much
hence,to prevent such great disappointment upon seeing our figures.
i know my ambs. and i know that fml isnt their first priority.
different people, different perception.
you may have fml as first, and when you think up your plans,
they may sound good on paper and everything, but human-wise,
not many are as committed as you, or as hardworking as you
many just dont look at fml the way you want them to.

basically, i think we need to revamp the system.
can i be listened to and not judged as ARGUING but more of SUGGESTING?




im so stressed about fml and i dont think you see it.
everywhere i go i try and ask ppl to come.
yes, maybe its my "freaking pitch".

come.one day.
you.me.pen.and paper.
teach me kaisheng.
i cant just be thrown into the deep sea and expected to float.
i know thats what you kinda want,
experimentations, experiences and learning from our mistakes.
but i need to know the basics.

How i got so affected by your blog post was just because of one
main word that triggered it.
"disappointed".
do you know how discouraging it is to be said to disappoint someone?
especially after you try your best and work so hard.
i live my life in hopes of not disappointing anyone, though i know thats kinda impossible.
but im just saying, you made me look at myself and think otherwise.
you made me feel like im not good enough and that im such a disappointment.
as if my self-esteem wasnt already somewhere hovering close above the ground,
its now sunk to an all time low. where i feel what i do will just sometimes never be seen as good in your eyes. im not saying that youre that your expectations are so damnass high, but im just saying, i guess whatever i do will never stand out to you. since i really work so hard at doing so. just hoping to be successful and have people realise that it was me who did it, or me who worked hard. and dont get me wrong, im not looking for praises or anything, but just to be looked as, as smtg far better than a "bimbo".
but i thank you for laying out what i did well and all a few weeks back.but so many things have changed now and from your blog post, it just really seems like youre not happy.and when youre not happy, im not happy.you dont know how interlinked all our feelings are with yours.you dont know how much we get affected when we see you stressed, sitting four-eyed in front of your computer with a smile barely able to show itself on your face.and thats kinda really very saddening..
i love Freemansland too much man. I WILL work hard for it.
but in this trying time of school projects and the numerous amnt of deadlines,
i know you understand but i hope you keep understanding why i have to prioritize that as first.
afterall,i do wanna stay in Fml.but we all know what mummy said bout me failing.
i can pretty much kiss fml goodbye. thats why im trying so hard for it.
but yes, im still on for the fight for fml.
cos we're family. and i want us to go far.

okae i dont think i wanna continue all this tonight la.
i guess it should be sleep now.or csa.
ugh.csa.
i just knew i wld push it to sunday.
damnit.

adcasd

its sad to know that after all we've been through,
one week apart and your views on us change.
i thought we would last.
i thought we were family.
though you cant see what ive been doing,
lemme tell you i do stress alot for us.
even if it seems like im only doing my assigned work, im not.

so we're slowing down.
talk to us then. tell us how we can help.
yes i have to prioritize.and im sorry that i cant make us first.
i have a life to lead.parents to please. but i really really love us.
and ill always care alot for us.but i still need to set myself straight, with the first.
you say you understand but maybe you dont really?
or maybe you do at the time you say you do, but then later on,everything once understood is misunderstood.i dont really blame you, defeat can change one's perception into thinking otherwise.


Communication breakdown alert.And thats just one of the worst possible things that could ever happen.I love us to much to let us go. I will not, until we get this right.I miss the past us. What ever happened to it.

-Disappointment and sadness.
not directed to anyone but to everyone.