my emo side.

kkk.
so now the emo side coming in.
prepare yourselves.






shit.like i dunno how to start.
uhh.kayy.
lets just say.
life's damn complicated and busy now.
school's taking up alot of time cos of O's.
and im like fuck worried bout O's cos im hoping to get 8 points!
which is like my hopes flying high in the sky.
BUT.
positivity saves the world.
so im just gg to remain positive!
cos i believe i realli can do it.
anyways.
ever since the second boy, ive never been able to like anyone properly at all.
not complaining bout the being free from relationship bonds and tie ups and blah.
but STILL.
it sucks to miss the feeling of liking someone.
i feel like a bloody crab can.
nerve-less.

GRAAAAh.
k la.
actually
my eyes are alreadi getting droopy in front of the screen and im laughing inside my head how stupid i look dozing off while typing.
so emo no more.
i shall salute you readers and go to sleep:)

goooood nighttts!:)


(it has been understood and accepted that this was a rubbish post.)

my emo side.

back i am once again!!
well lets just say, ive been working at the comex sale for two days alreadi!
and yesterday(firstday) was the most boringest work day i ever had in my whole entire life.
PUH LEASE.
jill and i were like..somebody save us.



kkkkkkkkk.
well ANYWAES.
today!!
was rather good!


lemme tell you first.
came from teachers day celeb.and it was GREat too!!
wah fuck.4/6's teachers day performance was fuck funny.
I SALUTE YOU lovelies:)

"AAAAAGAR"
(ppl who go untold of the lyrics, it may sound lame by what i just stated.but TRUST ME.it was hilarious.)

anywaes, after sch, rushed home and was so dog-gone tired i dreaded going to work.
but hyehey~
went to work in the end.
so off we go to work...LATE.
but never the minding.
we reach there and we find the FUNNEST spot at the door!
where EVERYONE was standing in a line and dumping flyers unto everyone who walked through our "gateway to flyer fest".
HILARIOUS!
met some nice ppl tooo!:)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

kkk well rather tired now.
but im gg to TRY and load a vid.of the fllyer fest madness.
HOLD ON....
kayy.so i guess not!!
not sure how to send it.

k la.well after this is gg to be a THOUGHTFUL post.
full of FEEELINGsso im gg to end this now.
abrubtly.
BYE.

WHY HELOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!
IM BACCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCK!!!
but it wont be for long!
haa.


anywaes.just here to post some pictures.
cos im clearly too lazy to type anything.
DOODOODOO~
byeboobiefaces:)




i have cool toes.

too cool for school.it wasnt that pain at all!!


picture above:cos i just felt like being annoying.

and here is my 12 year love:)

WOOO.loving the people.

and GOOD MORNING WORLD.makeup-less we are.

rachy so has a life.:)

hey.someone's gotta do it!!

because i felt FREE in what i was wearing.

let me just chain my bike first.we'll go to the coffeeshop and have our rounds of beer soon.

OMG.
three weeks have passed rather fast!!
and tash and nini are going back tomorrow:((

but positive thinking--that gives me time to study:))

ANYWAES
fast one.
lemme tell you of last night

first.i had school in the morning.
DEN i had tutorials till 4.40 in the afternoon.
DEN i had to RUSSSHH home to get bathed and changed for the night~!!


yeahyeah.so met pau and nick and headed to school for some school tribute to ccas.
and we were all like.eeyer.izit gonna be shitty.
but it turnedout fun!!!














































































anywaes,
after the thing,which ended at 9,
headed off to downtown to meet tashy,nini and tiffy!
since these few days, theyve been hanging arnd with din and friends
favplace is dte.
soooooo.i am dragged off there too.
so we sit down
and there are friends like daniel, bobo, diyana?,huda, and all!but sorrie.
i cldnt realli rmb the names.din was there yet--he went to meet his gf.

sooo.happily talking and talking and doing stupid stuffs.
everyone saes din is coming.
and im like.
oh my.
cos...he happens to be my ex!
but now.
whats happening btw us is that we were supposedly okae with each other?
but when we see each other, its so hard to even say hi!
soooooooooooo.
he came.
did some handshake with everyone at the table..except me.0_0

thaaaaaaanks ah?well not like i cared for the handshake but imagine someone saeing hi to EVERYONE at the table, except you?!
so yes.
rather out.


anywaes, he headsto another table, and we just talk.
and when saeing goodbye.
everyone says bye.
he does a handshake with tiffy,tashy and nini.
and i just stand there waiting.
k nvm.
so we head off.
and to think tash and all saed he wanted to be friends.
thanks.
no.
he.
doesnt.


i certainly 100% dontmind my besties hanging around with my ex and friends.
but theres this weird feeling that, the person you were once with is hanging out and having such fun with your besties.
and when you think back, youre thinking, it used to be me included in that fun last time.or smtg.
ah wells.
things change.
and people move on.


well after dte, went back to tiffs,
got readi.
and headed to phunk bar.

fuccckiinnnnnnnnnng funny.
HEELARIOUS i tell you.
we get there
and tiff saed, 16 year olds are allowed.
so we're like...okae!
so we go there.
the manager? askss us.
kay how old are you ladies?
-16,16,18,18.
alrights.well normally we dont let in 16 year olds on a Friday Night.but since youll are alreadi here, we'll let youll in this time!



...so standint outside.
the RnB music was damn good.
the DJ also very good
so we were like..hmmm.
shld be quite crowded ah.
THEN WE HEAD IN

anddddddddddddddddddddddd
its SOOOOOO EMPTY!!
so i was like LAughing and LAUGHING and laughing!!
paid 15 to see like 9 ppl max on the dancefloor
hiphoppers from dunno where dancing small stepss to themselves in the corner.
chinese boy dancing alone on the dancefloor, looking at himself in the mirror on the dancefloor
and seeing him point out to us as the song had smtg to do with "ladies"

AHAHa hilarious i tell you.
toilet was rather dirty.
place was rather old.
pool table was rather tiny.
but tash and i still played.
and SOOO.we met two other girls.
one whos 17 and one who's 24.
so both of them had also just met!!
and guess wad.
when tiff and nii went to the toilet, all four of them started talking!
den tash and i went in, and joined the conv.!
so happily making friends, the girls ask us to dance on the dancefloor.

and as much as i liked the music, soooooooo embarrassing right!!!!bloody dancefloor so empty and tiny!!and everyones just looking at ppl dance and shit.
but nvm!
nini and i go.
tash and tiffy REALLLI didnt want to.
so nii and i and the two girls start dancing.
noeing me- im like miss-CANNOT-dance in front of ppl.
but nvm.
let loose after a while.
AND so i just talk to the 24 year old lady
and she tells me she's here with her "guy"(so she said.)
and she points to him.and blahblah.
and i forgot to say--she's the one who when we just came in, were looking at how she danced so madly and all.
not say in a bad way.but she looked like a working lady letting all her stress offf after a heavy day of work.HAAAAA funny funny.
on the podium with the pole also dancing.HHEEELLLAAAARREEEOus.

oakeoakeokae.so describing her.
lemme tel you.
she.
decides.
to.
grind.
with.
me.
.
.
.
.
.
.
..
THANKS AH?
and im alreadi not even comfortable with dancing there.
and i also DONT like grinding.
AND SHE GRIND MY ASSSSSS
WAHLAU.
so i was like miss malu happily laughing.
and then i sae(laughing)---uhh.sorrie!!i cannot i cannot!!(also cos i didnt noe wad to sae)
then she whispers into my ear--nvm.just let go!

then im like...0_0
NO THANKSSSSSS PLeASE PLEASE PLEASE!!!


hahah well nini was lookingnormal.but trying to hide her disgust.
HAHA
so we tell both girls we're going out to have a smoke.
and so we go.
and we DISAPPEAR from that place.
.
MADNESS.
i mean grinding.okae so perhaps its normal with your friend or boyfriend?
but with a girl stranger.
and with the fact i dont even feel comfy dancing.
its just.not.right.


kkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.
well we decide to head down to pasir ris to meet fido and irsyad.
old friends--esp.fido la.
rather funnny guy!!
well i was like DAMN TIRED.
so i was sleeping most of the way.hahaha.

aiyoi.fast forwarding.
GUESS WHAT??
our friend which we were sitting at with downtown just now, his brother had passed away!!!!!!!
in a motorbike crash.
ANDD
the other motorcyclist.
was fido's brother's friend!!!!!!
and he also passed away!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
like O.MY.GOSH!!!
soooo saaaad!
at like 6+a.m din came and fido him and irsyad went to visit poor imran
imrans brother was also dins friend.so rather poorhting.

aiyoi.
and just before that, when we were on the way to phunk bar--we saw a crash and a body on the road.


WHAT IS THISSS??!
aiyoiiii.

well.thats my night.
and theres nothing more to sae.
so im just gg to say.BYE..

LIKE WHOA.
my weekend.has been jumbo packed full of things.
MADNESS.
im so tired.
but it was so exciting!

LEMME TELL YOU.

KAYYYYYYYY.
firstly, friday afternoon i had my social studies tutorial till about 4.30
den i reached home and got readi to meet the beavers!(tash, nini and tiffy!)
bestieeeeeeeeeeeeeees.
k DEN.
these lovely hell of a slowpokes took soooooooooooooooo long to get readi!!
LIKE THREE HOURS I TELL YOU!!
so i met them at like 8!or was it 9?!I THINK 9!!!
den!we went to veevoo seeetee.(vivo) and went to eat at MARCHE!
which is rather small yet still nice!
just very squashy la.
soooo
because our meal last time came up to $90 ++, we were bracing ourselves for the price this time!
but we got full so fast!!
after like one ham and cheese crepe and some plate of veggies and!two bowls of lovely mushroom soup!!
and the price only came up to.......$26++!!!!!
so we were all like WOOHOO WOOHOO.
k la not really.
just rather shocked.
but in my heart i was woohoo-ing la.

sooo leaving vivo.we were so happy.
the plan was to head to st.james next!
so as we were going down the escalator
tiffy and tashy were talking infront
den some youngish yet oldish?man of probably 24ish plus?
or mayb EVEN YOUNGER
like went into the escalator after tiff and tash right
but his finger was like having a party IN HIS NOSEEE!!
like shoved up deep YOU NOE!!
so den nini and i were like 0.O
den going behind him,
on the way down the esc.
HE HAPPILY RUBBED A HUMUNGO PIECE of his lovely noseshit and put it on the "rail"
0_0 0_0 0_0 0_0!!!!!!RIGHT?!
but i was just laughing.a lil bit outta disgust yet it was so funny how he just happily did it.
oblivious to shocked faces behind him.
so nini saw the shit on the thing but i didnt!so nvm
next
he goes in AGAIN.
and digs and digs.
and starts rubbing it with his fingers!!
so it must have like dropped out and all la.
AIYOOOOOI.
this ahboy ah.

so yes.k moving on from vivo.
we walked to st.james!
i was like...bleah.
i dont feel like going
but nvm!
quite exciting to see it la.
DENNNN,.
the crowd.like shit i tell you.
it was as good as being in a market full of old aunties and ladies.
except.this one had some old men and women who came from work and stuffs!
sooooooooo weeeeeird.
as much as i have complained that i dnt like underaged parties, i think id choose it over normal clubbing days.
BECAUSE of the crowd.
not the crowdedness.
but the young people.

oakeokae so we went like outside the boiler room or some shit like that
but decided to skip st.james.
den!
next on our stop.we headed to zouk
WHERE!!!!!!
at the train station of outram park?--forgot.

THIS LADY WAS DANCING!!!!!!
and it wasnt nice or anything!!
and she was like checking out herself in the reflection and all
and everyone in the train was staring and laughing at her!
HAAAAAAA.
what a lady.
but it was just SOOOO funny.
she looked like she was practicing some moves from a dance class.
but not very nicely la.0_0 poor woman
and den you noe those handles? inthe train?
she was hanging on to them and dancing"sexily"!!!
HAHAHAHAH what a joke.
so cute.
pity i didnt video it.
i'd feeel so baaaaaaaad.


yeah so!!going off,
we went to zouk where we met out lovely friend, david!!who helped get nini and tiffy in for free!!
under member thing la.
super kelly fragelistic espeeelledoxiously cool.
whatever.to.my.spelling.

KAY>
well tashy and i went to the park and sat and talked and attracted some cats to us!!
sooo cute.
ive got some pictures but it was so dark so whatever.
well we cldnt get in and i cldnt care less since i cldnt be bothered to club.
but poor tashy was so excited and really wanted to go.

oh wells.


okaeeeeee so after zouk,
jonjon saed that we shld try DXO if we wanted to get in!
so we headed there.
but once we got there we were like
aiyoi.
dxo so lousy.
why did we even come here
but nvm
we had a drink at the makan sutra!
den we headed to east coast!!
where we went to play poool!!and this was alredi like 2 smtg
so we played till three plus
and den decided to eat at macs!!
( i just looooove pool.i must PRAACTICE!)
k yes.so we went to eat at macs.
first. i bought a cheeseburger
and four of use shared one large fries.
den after dat.
tiffy saed.
k girls.
youll want fries of nuggets?
and!so tash and i saed nuggets!!(poor nini.she wanted fries.but TOO BAD!!hurhr)
den!!i saed, why dont we get TWENTY PIECE NUGGETS!!!!!
and all of us were like thinking of the same thing!!hahaha
so we did
and den after that at arnd 4+ we cabbed back.
taxi driver was like driving damn madly!
truth be told, i enjoyed it.
it was like rather fast and stuffs.
but like wad tiffy and nini and all saed, it was sooo dangerous(which is rather true)
but i suppsoe he thought we enjoyed it.hahaha

well slept at like 5+ after bathing and all.
fell asleep so fast.
den next morning.
im first to awake and i decide to play some grooovy tunes!
and everyone wakes up
and we watch SHE'S THE MAN!!
which was HEEEEELAAARIOUS!!
but nt before we made some popcorn!!!
nini was mad cos she madde the popcorn "sauce" thing to put over it.
and it consisted of....

NINE spoonfuls of sugar
HALF a bar of butter
FOUR/SIX scoops of honey
and TAADAH.
we have the most fattening yet super delicious filling.

okae so skipping to after i got home
i called pau!!
and we met and went SHOPPING!!
the metro sale was like MADNESS
the whole mall was MAAAAD!!
crowded as hell i tell you!!

wel i miss pau-ee and havent hung out with her for sooooo beyong long!
so today was fun:)
i bought four bras and she, two!!
so happy.
cos ive been meaning to buy it for sooo long.
well im rather satisfied.
and now i think i wanna sleep cos its getting late.

GOOOOOOODnight lovelies!!

boohoo.
O's are coming.
and teachers are doing nothing but STRESSING ME OUT.
okae la.perhaps they do a lil more than that.BUT STILL.
aiyoi.
time for tuition.
BYEEEEEEEe.


(what a very sad entry.)

OH WELLS!!!

:D

k a random statement to end off.
my daddy is damn cute.
he's happily dancing to justin timberlake's futuresex/ lovesound.
iznt he so funny.

OKAE BYE NOW.

like omg.ive have just been toooooo beyond lazy to blog!!

so since SOOOOOO much has happened in life, i shall just update you of my hols!
.............although the hols have pretty much alreadi ended-_-


WELL.
firstly, for one and half weeks, i had school!
then on the 29th of may, rachy,chel,nick,zora and i went to zouk!for vaunt II.
so yeah yeah.
it wass alright.
PACKED like hell.
i think the best place i could everr club at would be in my room.thank you very much!
hahaha


k so from the 7-10th of june,
most of the malay girls form sec 2-4 went to terengganu!
it was suppppppppper fun
and i made so many friends!
well not really so many la.
knew most of them
but just got rather much closer in a way:)

doodoodooo~!!
well ive got like TONNESSSSs of photos from it.
so im just too lazy to put it up.
HAHA.
poo.
well we stayed in a hotel and an inn.
arrangement being, hotel. inn. hotel
for the three nights la.
yes.

so blahblah.roommates were my LOVEliES!!!!!
nick oli and sonia pasu!!
what more could i ask for??:)))

OH YES.
first two days, you wouldnt guess.
I HAD A FEVER>
what kinda shit is this!?!?
but hey.couldnt beat the fact that i also passed it too son.
and she had it worse than me.
MUAHAHHAA.
if i cant enjoy,NOBODY CAN!
k la.i joke.ive apologised enough:)


alrights!!
so once i came back from the trip,
lemme tell you
lis and i had the scariest yet fucking funniest time throwing away the chewing gum.
but since im just too lazy to say it here.....i shant.
MUAHA.
but seriously.
cracks me up thinking about it.
hahahhahahaha.k shh.

ALRIGHTS.
from the 11-13th
i went out with tiffs on diff days~!!
slept over from the 11th to the 12th i think?
and went out again on the 13th!
funny funny.

then from the 14-19th.
i was away at a retreat!
it was an INNER HEALING retreat:)
and i feel so close to God.
being touched by the Holy Spirit a few times also increased my faith!
aiyoi.
the Priests were just hilarious and nice la.:)))

so upon coming back,
i decided to start mugging like hell!
so i decide to meet tiffy on the 20th i think?
and we only manage to meet for a while.cos i had to go for the inner healing mass again:)
so we happily plan to meet early the next day!!

and so im prepared to study right?
but do i get too?
NOOOOOO
cos you noe why??

MY FUCKING BESTIEST BESTIES ARE BACKKKKKK WITH A BINGBANGBOOOOOMM.

had the SHOCK of my life when i saw them at long johns!!
and to think they alreadi had it ALL happily planned out to come, from a MONTH AGO.

so yeas.
ive been out with my lovely lovelies since then:))

sleeping over at tiffy's place was just lovely
and on the 22nd?
went for my cat.class BBQ.


jon,thomas,dom,mark,nick,tashy,fran and i were the only stayover-ers!
and it was DAMMMMMMMMN fun la!
as in im so thankful these lovelies stayed over.

well.
thanks to Jon's lovely stupid small amount of alcohol.
i got drunk.
------___________-------
fucking madness.
i couldnt balance and neither could i rmb anything.
WHY THANK YOU VERY MUCH JONJON.
im never to drink again because of YOUUUUUUUU.
k la.we'll see about that actually.
muahahah!

yeah la.
so i had a shit hangover next day.
but hey!
came back at 7am and slept till 3.
left tiffs place at 6 and went home and bought dinner.
felt better by night!
OH.wait
i must say.
i had to FORCE myself to puke.
because!!i just felt like pure shit.
and i realli couldnt take it!
i knew it was coming out.
but it was just so stubborn at the back of my throat.
sO.
now i noe what it feels like to be bulimic.
GOSH.
wld never wanna be in that position.
0_0..//
EHHHHHH and EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWw
some shit came out from my throat.
looked like hair.
HAHAHAHAHHAHA.
i have a feeling it came from what i ate at tammy's party, which i had attended before the bbq.
aND YOU NOE WHAT?
cos tash and i went to meet matt tham-my to help him do a survey,
I STEPPED ON SHHHHHHHIIIIIIIIITTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
waulau.
terrible terrible.
what a tragedy.
but luckily i could wash it off.
PFFT.


okae!!so school has alreadi started.
and im just so tired.
ive finished some of my hmwk!
rejoice of rejoice.
well i think im heading to bed.
goodnight my loves:)

woot!
first day on the job!!

okae.
so im working as a waitress in Cafe Olive.
its a brand new place.
and i sae the interiors realli nice!
the food-scrumptious.
and the waitresses?
wonderful!!
HAa.
okaeokae.
anywaes.
today was my first day.
and to start the day badly--i was late
--___--
audrey audrey.
OH WELLS.

yeahyeah anywaes!!my nice colleague--im bad with chinese names and i forgot to ask for the spelling so she goes anonymous for now:)
WELL!as i was saying--she was teaching me all the stuffs to do and it was getting realli confusing!

1.set the cutlery(you'd think it to be easy.but its NOT.its the HARDEST and the WORST!)

2.take the customers order(i thought it to be hard.but its actually quite so fun!)

3.serve the customer drinks(okae la.i havent learnt how to make drinks yet.so SOON SOON!)

4.serve the customer food(its kinda hard when youre not used to the food's "name".you just end up going to the table and smiling stupidly.serving the food to anyone who would take it.)0_0 yet to be improved on!!haaa

5.clean up(i can say ive had good practice before so this was an okae task)

yeap2!!
so the mad part was that the place just got so madly crowded!!
so it was kinda stressful and hard.
but!nice la.
at least you dont get bored waiting for customers.
this was like free flow!!

anyways.i must say my back was suuuuuper duuuper pain la.
but what to do?its normal and expected i guess~!
DOODOODOO~
well its 02:24am and theres school in about 6 hours time and ive gotta wake up in 4 hours..
SO.i think im gonna call it a night for me:)

GOODNIGHT MEE LOVES.

oooh~!
lots to tell and rant today:)

yesterday--29th of May.
rachy,chel,zora,nick and i went to ZOUK!
okae more like phuture la.
but it was for this underage party.

so we arnt big fans of underaged parties.
but!we thought.hey!why not just relax,have fun and go for a ladies night out la.

SO!!
we got readi and blah blah and went over there.
got there at 8+
which was quite stupid.
cos the queue was just HORRENDOUS.
but then!it was SOOOOOOOOO much better than the MOS one la.
the mos one ah.
i tell you.
MADNESS.
BOYS didnt even bother to be gentlemanly.
WAULAU.whats this?!?!
but whatev.
not about mos la huh?

SO!!!!
went to zouk and the queue was a million centuries long but nvm!
alot of interesting looking people!
so queuing queuing.
i spotted.........cynthia!laura!aza!bianca!

so it was like a lil reunion and we were all so overjoyed.
so yeah.being the kind souls we were-we let them cut the queue.hurhurhur.

yeahyeah.so fast fwd-ding.
we all got inside and it was like SUPPPPPPPEEEEERRRRR packed.
and when it came to the dancefloor.
O.
MY.
GOSH.

it was MADNESS!!
nick felt nauseas.thats how cramped it was!!
and like nick saed.
frm the top.
onli people at the sides could dance nicely.
but the middle was just like only a sea of bobbing heads!
AND!
girls were so FUCKING BITCHY la!!!
i tell you i could just have punched this bitch behind me!!
i was trying to get to the middle with chel.
THEN!
she comes from no where and starts pushing my back like SUPER roughly!!!
and i was just like

0.0
then slowly.
my face morphed it..

>:[

tell me!how to be happy and carry on dancing when this bitch was like FOREVER
nudging me back and trying to grind someother people and just PUSHING me
into some other unknown people!
WAULAU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but whatev.
she spoilt me whole mood.
but being the stupid one who keeps her mouth shut-i din do anything.
oh wells!!

anywaes.
the dancefloor
packed like shit.
and not even nice.
want to dance--can onli move your fingers.
moving your fingers also like no space.
BLEAh.
rabbeeeesh.
i say im just gg to club at home with jill la.
we've got the bass.
we've got the music.
we've got a dancefloor.
we've got a podium.(bed)
what else do we need?!

gahahahaha.but seriously.
tonnes more better at home then with unknown idiots who are so rude.
PFFT.

yeah.
well alot of cute people.
but not like i realli care.
feelings for me are just so hard to come by nowadays.
what the fuck la.
nvm.
singlehood all the way la.


akjcnkvh

aiyoi.whatever.

anywaes!!rachy and i stayed over at nicks!!
and everything was so fun.
well firstly seeing nicks dog having fun trying to hump rachy's leg was funny.
and after bathing,going out in our pajamas to the nearby 7-11 at 03.00am
in humungo slippers--nick's brothers,
humungo shirts-like really
and!silky boxers was just fun.
and cooling
and relaxing.
oh yes.
and with wet hair.
HAA.

so all the coffeeshop people and some other teens also
were like staring at us in a very weird way.
and we were just happily being so unglam.
sometimes.
its just nice to go out and just be so ra-ra bout stuffs.
what you wear and how you look.
like other times it's alwaes about trying not to look like shit and stuffs.
oh wellls.

ah wells.
i think i shld be off off and away!
a few pics from last night though:)




aza,laura,cyn,nick and ME:)



i.did.not.pee.in.my.skirt.its merely a SHADOW.haha


doodoodoo~happily having fun.



my lovies:))